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RUBILYKSKOYE INBOX.
TELEPATHY • HOLOGRAM • LETTERS • DELIVERIES • ACTION
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| ✿ Rubi-telepathy (easy mode) feels different to ✦ Wanda-telepathy (hard mode). |
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TELEPATHY • HOLOGRAM • LETTERS • DELIVERIES • ACTION
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| ✿ Rubi-telepathy (easy mode) feels different to ✦ Wanda-telepathy (hard mode). |
May 23
[Ianthe sat on the roof of the clock tower, watching the town go on down below, as she messaged Wanda. Heavy. Lonely. Fractured. Always fractured.]
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She could say something silly, like how she once stole Pietro's favourite running shoes when he had worn the soles of his other pair to the bone… or how she once told Mama about Pietro tiptoeing into the kitchen and eating the chocolate she'd put aside as a treat.
But they're all mundane, little things. Ianthe already knows Wanda's capable of much more than mundane, little things.
Her thoughts come across in her thick, Slavic accent. ]
I tried to kill a young woman for her powers so I could steal my children from an alternate version of myself. But that's only a portion of the worst thing I've done for my family.
[ She doesn't wish to bore Ianthe with the tl;dr. What she does want to do is establish one thing: this is the non-judging breakfast club. ]
Are you all right?
cw: ref to death/violence
Not really. I hurt someone I love, I sacrificed him, to gain access to the knowledge I need to save my sister.
Yesterday I had a bullet put in my brain and my face beaten to mush for it. And I deserved it.
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[ Is that the thing to say? Wanda doesn't care. It's a genuine question, one that she's uncertain anyone else would bother to ask. Yes, it sucks that someone had to be hurt, but Wanda isn't naive enough to believe Ianthe's sharing this with her because she expects her to offer the expected answer: You did wrong. You deserved it. Are you sorry?
It doesn't matter if Ianthe feels the same. No one deserves any of that, regardless of what they've done. ]
You were hurting, weren't you? Why does one person's hurt mean more than yours?
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[And he had been her best friend. But she had to pick one of hers. That meant Alina, Gilia, Iggy, or Junpei. Her girls were never on the table, so that left the boys.]
I think if it'd just been a quick death, then maybe, but it wasn't. You were at the dinner with Zlatka. You heard me ask to learn Resurrection and the task she set for me. [Wanda had been sitting right next to the Duchess.] It was torturous.
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[ Ironic!!! Coming from Wanda!!! But perhaps that's why she's been so blasé about the entire thing. She doesn't think any deeper about it. ]
If Iggy is as innocent as you believe him to be, wouldn't he understand why you did it? An innocent person would have that kind of empathy. I feel that's what makes them… very much unlike us.
[ Wanda knows Iggy, but her perception of him isn't important here. ]
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[It's one of the more admirable things about Wanda, that she somehow managed to find a way to go on without Pietro.]
He does understand why. I left him a letter explaining it all. But he and you might be the only ones that will. I'm very much afraid I'm going to end up alone here, that I made the wrong choice to not stay in the castle and come back.
[Ianthe could weather being alone. She's practically always been that way (except Coronabeth was always there). She thought she could function alone. She absolutely can't. It'll just make her go deeper into the darkness with less reasons to tell herself no.]
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She doesn't answer immediately, suspecting an instantaneous response would come across as being less impactful. Some things require thought. ]
How can you be alone if you have me and Iggy?
And if he doesn't understand it, you'll have me. Who cares what others think? You can't control their fear, only your own—and most of the Void-touched are afraid of their own shadows.
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...you know, I kept his heart. So I could resurrect him once I learned. I thought Zlatka was going to keep him. He doesn't know I have his heart.
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I'm sure he would appreciate that when he's able to… move past everything.
Whenever you need it, I can always help you. [ It's a display of vulnerability. Before, Wanda was capable of speaking with such confidence, but now… She knows she's not the best helper. Less messy when she's involved.
But. She adds a touch awkwardly - ] If it… helps.
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I came back for them. I could be in the castle right now, learning, but I chose to put the lessons off for a little while so I didn't just disappear on them. And it might not even matter.
Just... still be my friend? Please.
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You think something like this would lose you my friendship? [ She can't help her light laugh, ensuring it transfers through warmly. ] Ianthe… It will take a lot more than that for me to turn my back on you.
[ A lot more. Thanos levels of more. While Ianthe is capable of so much, Wanda significantly doubts her in that department. ]
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Thank you.